A Sad Ending but a Bright Future

Hi, if you are here for an upbeat chat I’m afraid you may want to wait a few days until I post about journeying Blue to me. This post is written with a heavy heart.

These past couple of weeks I have been struggling quite a bit. On March 9^th 2014 my mum died at home in the night. This was awful to happen but the situation before it happened was horrendous anyway. Through my grief, I have found my sanctuary with Blue again, so this post is going to be how he has helped me through the highs and lows of going through life.

Horse-riding has always been by outlet and something that I could go to and enjoy. When I just started

high-school I struggled with the transition and was bullied from day one, Melody, my old pony, was the happiest part of my day. As my riding deteriorated and I became more and more nervous and failed at taking on my sister’s pony I fell out of love with riding and it was decided that we would look to buy me a confidence giver. Cue, Blue! Blue was the best thing that ever happened to me, he has got me though the last 3 years of high school and got me through a very isolated summer at home before university.

If you have been following me you will be aware that I have spent 7 months in university with Blue having a rider, this fell through and it was decided that I would have him back. Two days ago we travelled Blue up to where I study and settled him in to his new home. Even though I have only had him back for two days it’s been great having

him back.

Yesterday I spent the afternoon with Blue, riding him in the arena, getting him used to the yard etc. It was the first day in the past weeks I hadn’t got upset or depressed or overwhelmed. This made me realise how much I love riding. I know this is such a cringe, but please bear with me. When I ride Blue all my worries and issues dissipate and I can let everything disappear from my mind and solely focus on what I am doing with Blue. So, this post is dedicated to my appreciated of Blue and to all those horses who bring joy to so many people.

On a side-note, a more personal note, I want to say thank-you to everyone who has been there for me and my family during this time, I have never felt more secure. And, to all the people that have experienced grief and pain and trauma, my absolute condolences, grief is awful, especially to people who lose children and grand-children and close, close family members.

So, that’s me! That’s all I have to say.... I think. That’s why I haven’t been around on blog for a while, but I am back and Blue is back so we will both are getting back into the swing of things. I might post a few more posts on dealing with the death of my mother but I do not want to be insensitive and if any of you do not want me to then please feel free to comment so or email in. On a lighter note, I will be posting about Blue’s journey soon, I have an exam on Tuesday so it’s that will be up on Wednesday if I have the time J